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Ok, so I just deleted what I've written totally by mistake and I'm too lazy to type it up again.

Basically wish me luck. I have an appointment with one of my English Lit Profs in three hours and I get back my paper from last year.
All I need is a pass on it. But I have a bad feeling. But then again if I failed it he would have contacted me to rewrite it.

So I hope I passed. Because if not I can forget my finals in March.

*argh*

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Somehow I knew it.

I have to rewrite the paper till the end of the year.

I'm sitting in my office and don't want anymore.
I just don't want anymore.

Just can someone tell my why everything goes down? Can someone tell me why I am like this? Why I don't have any will to live at all anymore?
I see no sense in anything I'm doing right now.

I just want to curl up in a corner and never come out again.

That shit of paper just is one of the last straws again.
Till now I just would have said "What the hell" and have forgotten it, but I need that course, because I have no other. And I have no idea how to rewrite it or even how to get myself together and START rewriting it. Because motivation is one of the major factors and I have no motivation.
If I have no will to live how would I have any kind of motivation to rewrite anything?