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Today is a totally fucked up day, seriously.
I am this close to just giving up and ending it all.

But then again I don't have the nerve to do that, man I wouldn't want to miss all those awesome fics out there.

So today started with me getting up earlier than normal meaning 7.30am, so I could catch the train at 8.30am and head to the library to finish up that stupid Gothic paper.
Everything ok, I sit at the computer in the library and find out that I've just just wasted an hour by simply forgetting my flashdrive with all my work on it.
Fuck the day to hell, I went to collect my second to last certificate and went home, which meant I was home by 11am.
I went straight to work and actually was finished writing by 3.30pm, yay!!
So I went in to University again at 4, arrived at 5pm, printed the paper, created a pdf and sent it to the professor and then walked over to the English lit institute to hand in the printed version.

So who did I ran across? Yep you're right the professor. So I tell him my problem (that he needs to have a look at the paper till Friday, because I need the certificate to sign up for the exams next week).
And he just looks at me and asks me if I believe that he would give me that much time to revise a paper (3 month isn't that long, technically I do have a whole year according to the regulations, but I didn't tell him that).
And I was like "Uhh, hello? You didn't give a timeframe at all!" *argh* I could have killed him right there.
So he was like "Oh you did send me an email, ok then. Are you in on Thursday?"
Me "Ahm, no, but I can be?"
Him "Ok, so be here Thursday around 1pm and I'll see what I can do"

*ARGH* *KILL,KILL* Why do University professors have to be so stupid??

Ah well, then I realised that I havn't payed for my student fees (they where due mid February), so I went online and did some online banking *g*

Then when I came home at 7 it had snowed in a rough 10 to 15 mile radius around my hometown. But it wasn't the nice kinda snow it was more water than anything, like sludge.
Walking the 10 minutes from the train station to my apartment meant I had a swimming pool in my shoes.

And now I should actually go through those spark notes on O'Neill, Williams, Shepard and Wilder, but I don't want to.

*Is off to watch Stargate - the Ark of Truth*

Oh man, sometimes I really ask myself how I could study English literature.

I'm still struggeling with that stupid paper on Gothic literature.
I nailed the introduction in like 20 minutes, but the rest ...

It's just, all that I need I could write down in like 5 pages and be done with it. But no, the professor wants 20 pages and everything in an oh so high style of writing I could *§=(/%@*
I just can't do that, my writing is clear and precise, not flourished and posh as is "required".
Adding to that is the crappy secondary literature, which makes no sense at all and isn't even organized in any way. I could just write it down the way I need it, but then I would have a problem with references and I can't "plagiate" anything, meaning I need a reference for every single thing I write down.

*goes to kill that annoying fly that distrubs her concentration*

Ok, so I just deleted what I've written totally by mistake and I'm too lazy to type it up again.

Basically wish me luck. I have an appointment with one of my English Lit Profs in three hours and I get back my paper from last year.
All I need is a pass on it. But I have a bad feeling. But then again if I failed it he would have contacted me to rewrite it.

So I hope I passed. Because if not I can forget my finals in March.

*argh*

I hate unformated texts.
You would think, that when reading a novel everything is nicely formated so that you can read the story easily.
Far from it.

I'm currently reading "The Casle of Otranto" by Horace Walpole for my Gothic and Neo-Gothic seminar and it's strenuous.

You have 10 to 15 pages with one pragraph and there's no difference between normal text and direct speech - not even in single quotation marks.

I think I'm going crazy. I've never had so much to read for University and I'm still looking for Mark Twain's "How to write a stroy short" and E.A. Poe's Short Story Theory - I can't find the review of Hawthorne's "Twice Told Tales" by Poe. I should've just typed it into Google. *shakes head* I'm too tired for this.